I'm embarrassed and I'm working on forgiving myself. I am glad that I vented yesterday and I am starting over today.
I ignored all of the things that I am grateful for. I looked past the things that have true value to me. I denied all of the things that go right in this world and how lucky I am. I am ashamed of my selfishness and while I know it is human, it is not the way I want to be.
Especially today.
Mindy's post on her blog, The Suburban Life, helped to bring me back to reality. It is time to stop feeling sorry for myself. It is time to embrace the good things, to acknowledge the bad things, and to do what I can to make myself worthy of the blessing that is each and every day of my life.
I know that I will trip and fall again. I know that there are strong arms and hands and hearts to catch me and put me back on my feet again. I am stronger than I give myself credit for. I need to find a balance between standing up strong and kneeling with humility. I need to have confidence in myself and grace and compassion. I will find my way, one day at a time.
I will live in a way that makes me deserving of the sacrifices made to protect my ability to do so.
It is true - all good things com with time. It's just the waiting that's hard...well, the waiting and continuing to work at it.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement, booshy, as always!
ReplyDeleteDaphne - we are all entitled to stumble a little...and feeling sorry for ourselves is par for the course! I can tell that you are a resilient person who continually bounces back and you should be proud of that! You are inspiring a lot of people with your words!
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BTW..Thank you so much for the mention of my blog post. That specific post meant a lot to me!
www.thesuburbanlife.com
Mindy, thanks so much for posting! I could tell how much your post meant to you and I think that is why it moved me so much. Thank you for the encouragement!
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