I'm embarrassed and I'm working on forgiving myself. I am glad that I vented yesterday and I am starting over today.
I ignored all of the things that I am grateful for. I looked past the things that have true value to me. I denied all of the things that go right in this world and how lucky I am. I am ashamed of my selfishness and while I know it is human, it is not the way I want to be.
Mindy's post on her blog, The Suburban Life, helped to bring me back to reality. It is time to stop feeling sorry for myself. It is time to embrace the good things, to acknowledge the bad things, and to do what I can to make myself worthy of the blessing that is each and every day of my life.
I know that I will trip and fall again. I know that there are strong arms and hands and hearts to catch me and put me back on my feet again. I am stronger than I give myself credit for. I need to find a balance between standing up strong and kneeling with humility. I need to have confidence in myself and grace and compassion. I will find my way, one day at a time.
I will live in a way that makes me deserving of the sacrifices made to protect my ability to do so.